The Trap of Chronic Under-Eating

And I literally was eating like 1100 calories. And I remember, I brought a Tupperware as that person, a Tupperware of ground beef to the seminar, because it's the only thing my stomach can handle because I thought I could not eat carbohydrates, I couldn't eat anything else. So long story short, tangent, that is how I was introduced to you guys. And you cannot get rid of me it's it's funny you walk in everybody walks into these seminars every seminar i go to not just our own but i i still do a lot of education for myself and i'll walk in everybody's got the little tupperware you know some people they'll have the plastic because they're they're fine with that type of thing and some people have the glass and i go phthalates and all that and then they're like can i heat this up oh you have a microwave i don't want to use that people get really crazy that shit then i walk in with a fucking bag of mcdonald's and like 40 nuggets and they look at me they look at me like what are you doing I'm like I'm enjoying myself I'm having some nuggets yeah I know I remember that I think and Krista was there that was the first time I had met Krista and you had referenced working with her a bunch in the in the talks and so I remember I saw her in the locker room and I was like hey I was like you know what's it like coaching with them like you know what did they do and she was talking a little bit about her journey. And I was like, I'm signing up. Like I'm totally, yeah. Like this is, this is going to be it. And literally it was November, 2018. And then that December new year's Eve, I got engaged. And so then it was like it is on wedding time Like let go And I remember I was eating 1100 calories Cause you referenced that in some of your talks that are you lucky you lucky to get that consistently you usually eating under that Yeah. And I literally was like, I don't understand why I can't drop body fat. And, and I had crash dieted a bunch before that. And I lost a lot of weight, but I was soft. And I didn't like that soft feeling. But I was like, I don't know how to get past that point where I'm eating more, but I'm losing weight. Cause you see it all over the internet. You see every coach bragging how their, their clients are eating 300 grams of carbs and their girls are losing weight on like, you know, a thousand gram carb refeeds, which you just did this weekend. By the way, this man just ate 10,000 calories over the weekend. I'm tan. I'm going back and forth. But so, so, you know, only eating that much, I literally thought I was broken, which I know a lot of you guys can relate to, and you just are so desperate. And I think that's the point when people are ready to change when they're, they've tried everything else. They have nowhere to go. Like where, where was that going to go? 700 calories, which some girls have to or have, but I had nowhere else to go. And I was like, please take me in.